Walk away..

T.I.R.E.D

Pengeeen banget rasanya,

pergi sejauh- jauhnya..

Tempat dimana bisa santai..

Tempat dimana bisa bebaaas..

Bosen kalau setiap hari kaya gini..

Capeeee...>.<

Terjebak di rutinitas yang ga menyenangkan..

kewajiban berserakan dimana- mana..

sedangkan happy cm mampir bentar..

aaaaahhh..

pergi yuuuu...

jalan- jalan kemanaaaaa gitu..

Yang bisa bikin relax...^^

Kotak hitam berpita biru

sangat cantik

ingin kusentuh, tapi bukan milikku

seorang gadis manis pemiliknya

aku hanya terus memimpikannya

terus memikirkannya

betapa aku ingin memilikinya

suatu pagi,

dikala aku sudah tak berharap lagi

kotak berpita biru berada di depan kamarku

tertulis "aku milikmu"

tanpa pikir panjang, kupeluk erat

kutulis "kamu milikku"

kotak hitam itu hartaku

Kotak hitam itu kesayanganku

Kotak hitam itu terlihat cantik

Kotak hitam itu terlihat sempurna dimataku

aku berkata

"Akhirnya, kamu jadi milikku"

Seiring hari berjalan

aku tersadar

terkadang kotak itu terasa lebih berat

terkadang kotak itu membuatku tak leluasa bergerak

terkadang goresan di kotak itu membuatku sedih dan memikirkan bagaimana dia melewati hari- hari dimana dia belum jadi milikku

terkadang goresan itu membuatku bertanya cukup baikkah aku?

terkadang rasa marah datang apabila sesorang berusaha merebut kotak itu dariku

tapi disaat yang sama

senyum mengembang dari bibirku

disaat aku memandangi pita yang indah

disaat aku memikirkan......

eh

ya! betul

mengapa tak pernah kupikirkan?

mengapa baru sadar sekarang?

kotak itu hartaku

tapi

apa isinya?

mengapa tak pernah kubuka?

kegembiraanku mendapatkannya membuatku lupa

lupa tentang apa hartaku sebenarnya

tanpa tau apa isinya, segera itu kujadikan milikku

kubuka

kubuka

perlahan kubuka

aku terkejut

Kejutan yang membuatku meneteskan air mata

kejutan yang juga membuatku tersenyum

tak pernah kusangka

tak pernah terpikir sebelumnya olehku 

 bahwa seperti itulah isi dari kotak hitam berpita biru itu sebenarnya

itu hartaku

kotak hitam berpita biru

Dvanie Catherina

Hmm..

Baruuu aja Cie Yani melangkah keluar dari rumah..

Udah berasa sepi lagi...

Yaaaa... weekend ini ga ada Cie Yani de..

>.<

  

Anyway

Save trip ya Ci Yani

I'll miss u...

*lebay mode : on

~ See you on Monday morning ~

Aku beres kerja, cie" pulang dari Indo,

Trus kita bobooooo sepanjang hari..

Hahahaha...

^^

Thanks God it is Friday..

Yatta!!! ^^

asik asik..

Senangnyaaa...

finaaally i can enjoy my weekend..

hihihihi...

This morning i had been working from 9am to 2.30 pm..

cape banget juga nggak, ga cape pun ga mungkin..

hehehehe...^^

Anyway, I am very happy...

Thesedays ada lah kesel", tapi overall OK lah..

Males kerja Sunday overnite nih..

Tapi what can i do, no choice..

Pasti dah ga kan ada yang bisa gantiin..

Udah berapa kali susah cari ganti minggu, hehehe..

ya sudah lah ya, nasib nasib...

Ci Yani mau pulang Indo nih hari ini, sampe senin doank..

Ci Nita wedding soalnya..

Hmm.. gue kapan ya? wakakakakak..

Pasti masih nanti nanti nantiiiii banget..

Kerja kerja kerja, skola skola skola dulu ah..

I want to enjoy my own life without sharing with anyone else, wakakak..

Egoiiisss abiiiisss!!!! wakakaka...^^

But thats is true, isnt it?

after being a mom, u need to do A until Z..

u need to think about almost everything..

hwaaaa...

anyway, I am not interested in it yet, wakakak...^^

Balik ke soal Ci Yani, i will miss her so much..

althought it is only for 3 days 2 night..

Hmm...pretty long for me who always talk to her everyday..

Anyway, masih ada Ci Stev, hehehe...

Sabtu kita bakal jalan", and Sunday morning mungkin gereja dulu..

tetep aja musti cepet pulang, soalnya malemnya overnite..

Aduh, ingin skali berteriak " Maaaalaaaaassss..." trus kabur ga ke McD..

What will happen? hahaha..

Ga lah, just kidding.. ga mungkin lah...^^

Still miss Bandung very much..

Now, start missing DBID again..

Miss everyone..>.<

Winter

It has been so cold these days..

Luckily i have not done any overnite shift...>.<

I hope this sunday wont be so cold..

hmm..

I miss Bandung..

I really miss Bandung very much..^^

I dont know why, suddenly i realised that what i am using are all pink..

Hmm.. weird is it?

Citra is wearing :

pink pijamas..

pink socks..

pink robe..

hahahaha..^^

But it is very very cold..

I have not had my dinner and lunch yet..

it is too lazy and too cold to go out from my blanket..

However, i need to have something to eat..

Maybe after Ci Yani finish take a bath..

Winter is coming, coming..

and all my memories about him are coming as well..

These days, he looks more cheerful than last time..

Big smile, hahaha...

I am happy for him..

Hmm... wish u all the best and a very good good luck then...

I think Ci Yani  is out of bathroom already..

means i am going to have dinner..^^

PS: my writing is pink as well.. what happen to me??

10 May 2010

Today is my 19th birthday..

and today was so perfect...

Since last nite, I was very happy..

Mulai dari Ko Mikhael dateng..

Bawa kue, kado and sok" bikin surprise..

He thought I was sleeping, but I was not..

Hahahaha..^^

I was making jelly... 

Hmm.. it is delicious..

Anyway, I was waiting for my bday in Ci Yani's room..

I was on skype with Ko Danny..

And suddenly Ko Danny moved to his car..

He sang 'happy bday' song for me..

He bought a present, which I really want..

I got 'bamboo' buat gambar" gitu, yg bisa langsung nyambung k komputer..

Hahahaha... G gaptek..

I dont know what it is called. But Ci Yani calls it 'tablet'..

anyway, I dont really care..

I just feel so happy that I got it..

But @Ko Danny, I am waiting for my guri", haha..

My lovely blue octopus.. Come to me..

Suddenly ( another suddenly), Yogi called me..

He said he was in front of my house..

I went out and found him with a birthday cake..

Hwaaa... It was sooo cold..

Anyway, I was so happy coz he brought me chocolate cake..^^

I decided to go back to Ci Yani's room..

And opened my present.

While I was busy with them, someone knocked the door..

I was very scare and Ci Yani walked to the door and opened it..

Ci Stevannie and Ci Lia were standing in front of the door..

They sang happy birthday and asked me to blow the candle..

Ci Stevannie and Ci Yani gave me a red bag which is very nice..

Ci Lia gave me an ice cream earrings..

I was very happy..

But it was not stop right there..

I came back to Ko Mikhael's present..

I got an iPod (which is blue and if just realised tonight that there is 'Happy birthday, Citra' on the back), Beary (which is a bear with a luggage of chocolate) and a piece of paper.. I opened the paper slowly and it is a painting of me ( which is made me surprise cos it is very nice and it looks really like me)...

I slept that early morning..

I was feeling really sick before all that happened..

But after that, I feel like flying high in happiness..

Tonight, I had dinner with some of my close friends..

And it was great..

I got a blue blouse from Ci Ayala..

Martabak cake from Anton..

Chocolate from Helen, Vanessa, Martha and Tina..

I was so happy...

This is a the most perfect birthday I've ever had..

Thx God..

I love u aLL...^^

Good night..

Thank you...^^

They are all the best for me...

I love you all...^^

Friday, 080510

Ini tuh hari Jumat..

Dimana gue harusnya bisa nikmatiin weekend..

Dimana gue harusnya bisa hepi- hepi..

Dimana gue harusnya bisa main sama temen- temen..

Dimana gue seharusnya bisa tidur nyenyak dan bangun siang..

Dimana gue bisa skype, chatting, main facebook buat ngobrol sama orang..

Dimana gue bisa menikmati hari off gue dari ASSignment dan kerja..

Tapi..

Gue malah sibuk mikirin gimana caranya nahan air mata gue,

selain dengan berdiri terbalik..

Berkorban

Namanya dunia..

Berkorban pasti selalu ada..

Buat dapetin sesuatu yang berharga, pasti butuh pengorbanan..

Buat dapet kebahagiaan, pasti perlu berkorban..

Buat liat senyum orang yang kamu sayang, juga harus berkorban..

Di hidup ini..

Kadang kamu yang harus berkorban..

Kadang 'aku' yang harus berkorban..

Kadang pengorbanan itu butuh air mata..

Kadang pengorbanan itu penuh luka..

Tapi satu yang pasti..

Dalam pengorbanan, pasti ada harapan untuk bahagia walaupun sekecil apapun..

Aku, Citra, juga harus berkorban..

Dan aku, Citra, juga banyak menerima pengorbanan di sepanjang hidupku..

Buat bahagiain orang tuaku, 

aku harus rela jauh dari mereka dan berjuang melepaskan diri dari manja..

Buat masa depanku, 

orang tuaku juga berkorban membiarkan aku pergi jauh dari mereka..

Buat mengerti aku,

seseorang who are precious to me,

dia ngorbanin perasaannya dan melepaskan aku tanpa ada satu kata yang menyakiti aku keluar dari mulutnya..

Dan aku juga mau untuk selalu berusaha untuk mengerti perasaannya..

Buat someone who I care about,

aku rela untuk bersabar melewati semua cobaan yang kadang terasa di luar kemampuanku..

Dan dia juga selalu berusaha menerima apa yang kuucapkan dengan terbuka..

For some people who I love very much,

I'll do whatever I can do as long as I could stay beside you...

Walaupun kadang berkorban itu sia- sia..

Aku masih berharap kalau semua akan berakhir bahagia..